holding on to what i have .

life seems pretty much boring . hmm clubbing , and all that is damn boring alr . so im trying to pick up new habits and hobby . but seems like i cant really find one. ugh i dunno why , but texting you is just pissing me off more . yes i care for you , yes i love you , yes i respect you , yes im being myself . but are you ? are you being yourself ? you arent . how do i know ? cmon .. its wrong to ask that . today supposingly should go out , but im just not in th mood and not up for anything . all i feel is like sitting in my room , lock myself up and jus stare in at my white clean wall . ha wtf . sorry ah if i damn guai lan ah but hell not in th mood for th past few days liao ah . its like , if you dont fucking wanna text me , jus don text sua . all this tipsy stuffs are getting into my mind, and making me so pissed off . i dont even know if should do what i wanted to do for you . im afraid i might jus waste my afford , and you wont appreciate it , or treasure it . in th first lace are we even .... okay , lol wthelll am i crapping man . why am i feeling so worked up about it ? i mean you are nth to me right ... or are you smth so much to me ? that im like this ? maybe when th tear roll down me , i'll know th answer .
whats th dealio about this man ugh bye .