kristal is sick >;

down with fever , cough , and flu . whats th worst that could ever happen huh ?
oh well , life's unfair right ? its just th matter of fact on how u handle it urself though . im learning to be independent and strong .
cut off that soft side of me . cut off that giving in and sacrificing for people . cut off with th " its abt u than me " .
i gotta make my life right . like it or not , i still have to face it .
"expect th unexpected "
people change . they were devils once , but nw they are much better .
and another is that , they were angels but now they are jus something that has so much grudges against you .
whatever i do nvr seem right . although i said good stuffs , they wont be happy with it . and if i say bad stuffs , they will knock me down .
i nvr learn to express my feelings before until i met someone . thn i begin to open my heart and let out everything . nw letting out everything jus rather seem so wrong for that person , where by he/she was th one whom taught me so .
i gotta move on . i've been through this shit for three years before . and i got phobia and someone opened up my heart . but in th end i got stab like a knife from that someone . till today , that someone will still discriminate me till he or she is satisfy .
if i could survive still for three years pain , im sure i can deal much better with this time round huh ?
jus one thing , "dont let emotions overcome you " . its dangerous .
im turning sixteen , and what else more ? i have to study well , and enjoy life . parents , studies , me , friends - these are my priority .
give up on relationship , kristal .
sometimes , i get so lost and i found myself , heading to nowhere but just a big blank right infront of me with unsaid and undone things .
i have to be independent now and stand strong . and i cant bring down or disappoint ppl who treasures/ love me .
anyway , people been telling me stuffs how one tried to condemn my life and all yeah i mean , i have no say to these people but just one thing , hope u guys live ur own life right .
questions ? like all these , nonsensical questions ? nahh i aint interested just think what u want and done alrights :) be satisfy with urself and ur own answers and mind sets .

apart from all these another question of mine ...





why is ur - ego bigger than you ?