indifferent .

oh well , couldnt take it anymore so texted him , asking him to study well as for now all secondary schools mid year exams are coming up . hell yeah , thn jus wanna try to say i miss him indirectly but in th end i texted him straight on how i misses him badly . hmmm , but he gl me . expected . thats why it took a whole lot of courage for me to text him . maybe i should put all these aside ? and jus think positively , like he will confirm gl or kp me . but whatever it is , he still cares for me ? .. even i say th right thing , he will make it sound stupid or wrong . if i say th bad thing , he will kp me million times . but yeah , used to it and numb already . but im jus thinking positively , that whatever it is my actions still do affect "people" ? why when u finally wanna make things right , thn ur past finally been revealed and it screwed up all th changes u were about to make , and you have less courage to stand strong alr ? life's tough uh ? oh well , im a fucking sixteen years old girl . i still have a long way to go . i can still correct my mistakes , and erase those sins i have done . i still have a long way to go to make life a great one , and to be a saint , not a sinner . he cares for me , but he dont show it .

" he's strong and aggresive on th outside , but it hurts him alot deep down . he's breaking apart each time deep down . he is very sensitive and soft , but very aggresive on th outside "